ThE LiTLe PrInCeSs HouSe...

Working

2010-02-10T17:45:00.002+08:00

Tired.... today was a bad day for me. Calling ppl to come for walk through for my classes but end up nv come and also nv call and inform me... den call everyone is busy and not answering my phone calls. sian diao... haiz... but any way look further. i still need to do the course guide thingy like time allocations and also some guidelines. haha. dats where i like besides calling and gana scolded.. Hope tmr will be a great great day ba... 加油吧！！！

Working

2010-02-10T11:28:00.001+08:00

Now working at WORLD OF TCM MEDICARE PTE LTD... tired...

My favourite!!

2009-11-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

ROBINSONS

2009-05-15T10:04:00.002+08:00

Tired Tired,,, now i am working at Centerpoint Robinsons. and yesterday awas the GSS for Robinsons member was like standing and by the time i reaches home was like around 11.45pm already... I knoe he dont like me to work but since i am like working cant he just care for me i am also tired, i am also someone who needs people to ask about me and take care of me. But he failed to do that... haizzz...

NDS Radio

2009-03-16T11:26:00.000+08:00

hahaha... anyone heard of this before i saw it on this website : http://nds.cngba.com/nds_bd/2007122422244.shtml. go read it up.

It looks like that, but not sure if its sold in singapore yet...

Volunteer Day + V Day Special?

2009-02-17T07:14:00.000+08:00

Wow, a fun day indeed. haha... Wen to meet him in the afternoon end up he said i wen to the wrong place so i walk from Kim Tian Blk 121 to Henderson Blk 212 When i reached there, i called him. The place looks weird as no one was there. Then his sis sms me the in charge hp number: 91234567. I called then say i am CIndy the person say ok and told me the right address. Which is at Kim Tian Blk 122.

So dat means i bai walk le... '''''diao'''... Wan me to walk back wait long long long... i asked him to pick me up from Tiong Bahru Plaza and i took his ride down...

At Last APEX Reached le... 35 packs of rice ------> Toa Payoh Lor 1.

We both went home after distributing the rice... so fun... Sleep til the nite activity gg to start...

Dinner at Kunshinbo. Great food and good time...

Dessert?

Setting of to Singapore Flyer...

Help me!

2009-02-13T15:04:00.000+08:00

hey guys help me vote for the most lookalike couple.

Hi! We are taking part in the CozyCot Valentines Couple Look-alike Contest. Please vote for us by clicking this link: http://www.cozycot.com/valentines/contest/5. We are Couple #96. Thank you!

My day?

2009-02-12T11:55:00.000+08:00

Since after chinese new year til today i only need to go to school once a week. But i dont know how come i am so busy leh... hahaha... doing project, i some more specially go down to town to get a pack of stickers for my scrap book...

V day is coming yet i have yet to get anything for my bf, my fren is having her ROM on my granny's birthday. Headache sia. Tired...

Sian Sian

2009-01-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

... me so sian today cos i was working and stupid me i scan i item then its supposed to be multiplied by 2 instead i multiplied by 29 instead lor... but anyway, i changing outlet tmr le so not so presurred but the other outlet cant void payments de so scary lor... hopefully that i am more focus ba... Jia You!

2008-12-14T16:31:00.001+08:00

Sis Wedding day

2008-12-03T19:45:00.000+08:00

hahaha. at last a long day!

SomE Snapshot for the morning,

23rd Birthday around the world!

2008-11-16T19:51:00.000+08:00

hahaha... a very special day with no surprise though but i did enjoy myself and my my feet so suan... lol...

Today is my actual birthday. So went out with dada to compasspoint early this afternoon to collect my present from Poh Kim. He reserved the Sanrio disk where alot of places are out of stock already but he managed to get them for me altogether got many disks. Looks cute and like very nice leh... (now cant watch need wait for him to watch together leh)

Den we went to Orchard to shop cos he wan to go Crocodile to buy polo-ts' but both of us walk all around Taka dun haf crocodile leh... and we got to rush for a show Quantum of Solace at Cathay at 4.45pm and dat time is already 2+ le...

End up shopping in Zara cos he say getting me smt from there but i choose for myself lor. Walk and walk til so tired in the shop nv manage to find anything BUT on the way out, suddenly he say a nice nice tube gown dress den ask me go try. So i go try end up hor, the dress fits so well but its in brown cos the purple is out of stock already. NVM we nv give up cos we have this problem either we will get the last piece or not the colour dat we wanted lor... I went to the counter to ask the salesgirl hoping there is one whether a not is display or last piece so dat i can get it . Its really nice lor. (when can i wear? LOL...) She say will call me once she found out...

... when she is finding out, we both look for crocodile but in Paragon before dat, we went to the Seiko building at Orchrd behind Crown Prince Hotel but it closes on Sundays and Public Holidays. end up cant go in see see lor...

... Paragon was not fruitful time just passes so quickly so we decided that we should set off for our movie. Went to e bus stop outside and took a bus to Plaza Singapura and walk down to Cathay... Still looking for Crocodile... LOL...

Movie started and there are phone calls coming in my uncle bring things to my house, the dress is available at Marina Square but last piece, mummy want join us for dinner after much consideration. Yeah! dress still have but can onli collect on Monday... so after Cathay, we take a train to Orchard for our dinner at Chong Qing Hotpot @ Tanglin Shopping Centre. dada nv book so no space. then must wait BUT BUT, he saw Suntec also have leh so we decided to go there den go collect at MS the DRESS rmb?

But our vehicle is parked at Cineleisure... i say bus, he say cab end up tale cab cos his ezlink card is onli left with $0.60. Cab reaches at cineleisure and we reached MS in a whiles time. Tried the dress and paid for it-------->

Then went eat....

Then suddenly rmb dat Suntec got Crocodile hahaha... at last we found it but close le...hahaha...

End of the day like wat my bf always say As long as we are happy can le...

Exams...

2008-11-14T10:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha.... at last exams are now over but very scary as the results will be out by 4th December sia... Look at our study pictures below...

Shopping for my $30 Present

2008-11-02T18:08:00.000+08:00

hehehe.... so sad but also happy. Yesterday was a long day though i nv study but my ear phone for my MP3 one side is soundless and its so boring... haiyo dun so worried cos that earphone only cost for $12+ hahaha... Got it from some barang barang shop...

I have been aiming for the Button Earphone or headphone that i saw in gramephone the other day... so tempting...

See we both have money for shopping so we went to shop yesterday. And i bought my button earphone so happy and dear bought a DVD haha... happy happy...

Some more ate my 1st snack bar wen i was studying that dat day with my fren. hahaha... strawberry de,,, so sweet.

Wahahaha....

2008-10-27T18:48:00.000+08:00

Haved a full full dinner tonight. dont know for wat reason my eyes is so painful sia...

1 Down!

2008-10-26T23:16:00.005+08:00

hahaha... great! one module down now left onli 2 more modules. MAB and MR... Scared sia, today so relax. Eat chicken rice for lunch at 2pm. Then go back home and gong gong keep on playing NDS me nothing to do. But he make cup corn for me so sweet rite... My birthday coming le, my sis wedding also coming le... so happy... Yeah!

hihi

2008-10-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

tmr is holiday for everyone but i having exams on the 8th and 10th... so sad...

Busy Busy Busy

2008-06-17T21:08:00.000+08:00

hahaha... this few days had been a busy day for me. i went to IT fair on 13th myself after my M5 paper but didnt manage to make it. haizz... passing is like 75/100 and i got into the range of 61-74 so sad. so i walked aimlessly to the IT fair myself.

But then i looked at some things like GPS and hard-disk dat i always wanted to buy. den sat went for my M9 class dat class was really great that i feel dat even i didnt read the text, i seems to have remembered most of the things but need to revise til the 27th which will be my exam date.

Til this point in time think some of u guys will noe wat i am talking about its actually my insurance paper. I decided to go into HSBC for my career cos my studies is not doing to well. So i have made this decision.

Working and studying together may seems tough but my parents are not dat bad, though they will nag and nag but they are still caring about my future and also my bf.

The other day he say he dont feel like gg to the IT fair end up we also went together and i even bought my harddisk from maxtor 250gb for like $138 bucks. which is like so worth it. haha... need to get my pay le den i can transfer the money back. I have yet to get my pay from Recruit Express for my job at Maybank the previous mth.

Now my baby is doing his reservice but this time, i am not bored cos i got lotsa of things to do. i have already used up 2 days and now i am left til sat then i can meet him under a few circumstances ba... or else it will be sunday le...

Study for my paper and also playing baby's PSP is so fun... some more transferring doc into my new hdd and sticking the skin too was fun. Yeah!

Busy Holidays

2008-06-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

seems to be very busy during the holidays. i applied to be a financial planner at HSBC but need study for 3 papers and also invigilation at ACJC, the PE is damn cock up.

By the time dat i finished then its like 7 pm when i reached home i am dead tired and still haf to study for my exams which is like going to be on the 13th. hhaha...

So sad that i flang my MAB once again really no mood to retake hopefully, i can change another module to replace this one.

Nites

ELF

2008-05-22T20:23:00.000+08:00

haha... bought onli 4 things from elf spree. but the things came today... so fun sorting them out then i can see all the diff items. Yeah!

moodless and unhappy days

2008-05-16T07:27:00.000+08:00

these few days of mine are as the title of this blog... my bf is not free for my service for this week... i am rather sad and unhappy as he is accompanying his friend who is suffering from depression and feel no meaning for living on Earth...

lonely lonely lonely at home...

Popcorn Effects!

2008-04-26T12:46:00.000+08:00

Study can make ppl mad, so i went to design with my new popcorn pens on my book of nots,,, There it goes beautified... haha

Hi everyone who bought the popcorn pens, i am also one of them who just bought it. The hairdryer is far too slow til i am so scared that i will over heat the hairdryer and spoil it.

So, haha i went to put the wordings that i wrote into the toaster then i really got the effect shown on the web.

This is from the top view.

This is the side view -------->

Its really so great! hahaha...

Study Study + free 1 day moist acuvue trial

2008-04-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

yeah! i have received my popcorn pens. it really does pop up. going to be exams soon already so i am also mugging hard. Have been at home for the past 1 week, so bored...

Acuvue is giving 1•DAY ACUVUE® MOIST™ Trial and receive FIVE pairs of lenses! but maybe need to pay for the checking of eyes. not sure how much they are going to charge. Also thinking when will i be able to get them...

Sprees,,,

2008-04-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

hahaa... i seems to be buying when i am studying.. bought some things already. got to stop now... bought popcorn pens if ur dun noe wat are they can see the following picturess...

After hair drying the ink dry, the words will pop up like curly worms... so cute rite...haha...

Got to study for exams le... Jia you wo...

Healthier babe

2008-04-04T20:29:00.001+08:00

heheehe.... got beta le these are the initial stage pills... take already but no change...

so go see er hum... DOCTOR la, who else go find god meh??? lol... so he double the dosage of my antiboitics (the yellow big 1) den change to cough mixture to cough capsules lor....

FIRST TIME IN LIFE taking cough tablet... wow... a who ha lor... (dun noe how spell la)

Den can talk at last le, has been like a sleeping beauty for the past few days. Luckily can go sch today else die le...

And friends out there, thanks for helping me with my project load. Guess u all noe who u are rite? hehe... i owe u will repay u back... Really appreciate it so much this is wat friends are for rite....

O ya, drank this today at Terra u guys can go try it, its cool. Its ROSE TEA, hot one la... drink from a water bottle is so funny inside a cafe. lol... make me go home lao sai same more... hahaa

kk, got to go study le... take care dudes. i will take care de...

Sickly Babe...

2008-04-03T13:33:00.000+08:00

sian these few days coughing non stop. Just cough out blood. so Scary sia...

cant even start studying for exams leh... how? Some more i felt so bad that i cant do my project work got to get jr to help me carry them out. cos doc say if not rest or not well will haf to go x-ray cos left lungs inflammation some more got phelegm there...

sorry guys... will get well soon.thanks for ur understanding and help!

A day today...

2008-03-12T21:16:00.000+08:00

Went Jack's place for my dinner... nth much though. but later after dinner i went shopping. bought contact lens solution and Mr Prince pencil... its so cute.

hahaa...

2008-03-12T08:19:00.000+08:00

My dearest darling bought PS3... Currently playing like siao these days and also PROJECT PEORJECT AND MORE PROJECTS... so tired,,, nv think sleeping is enuff..

And my NDS fix ok le... at last can play le... dear also got me a new 2 gb card for my ds now inside got 36 games... yeah!

Some more these days my MAb lecturer siao 1 ask us to do 2 chapter the tutorials so many how to finish sia... ok dudes, gtg already.

Study Study Study

2008-02-27T13:03:00.000+08:00

Next week got 2 test... sian now need to study liao le... so not fun!...

cant watch movie, cant watch tv, onli can study and also new thing to do is to go run at my park every wed and fri. so dats the days dat i will be at home... lol

just finished my running and back home with my comp..

hehe...

2008-02-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

haha, just finish studying for today;s schedule for my test next week,,, so tired and also finish editing my blogs sia so many duplicated posts...

This site is not so very user friendly. It never tell me whether i have successfully or not posted my posts from bloggers i thought nv so i add them again. end up got 3 to 4 times the same post.

Its sleeping time so nites everyone!

WOW!

2008-02-25T17:19:00.002+08:00

Linking both multiply and blogspot together now... its so cool. i think it will eb quite successfil ba... wait to see the results.

New Clothings

2007-07-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

Yeah!, i bought these 2 thingy today... so happy. very long nv go shopping already. so happy... ---------------> this cost altogether $60 all thanks to my bf from 70 chop down the price to $60. some more got a free t-shirt sia... Nice nice rite?

A weird day

2007-07-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

Today is a very weird day. - run over by the baby's pram - shouted by him saying dun disturb. - i said or mayb shouted at him abt the car - he say me back... i feel it very weird, btw, i did not do anything wrong. i am just speaking the truth. And he drove so fast back at 90-100km/h. den when in front got car near him den i just hold his arm. he shouted at me saying dun touch me. Fine, u say dun touch i assume dun talk also lor... Just take it is my fault. I always want to go out, yes u peh me go out today already. I also very happy that i went to a place i did not go before. But today he is really weird, when u thinking i cant ask him anything, or else i will feel like i am being ignored. so smt, i just preferred to just keep quiet. Silence is golden there once was a man whose my dad told me this before. So lets just haf a quiet nite tonight. i will also not call him until he does it. Just take care, can drop me a message or wat if u really dun feel like talking to me if u happen to see this blog tonight. cos i really dun noe wat u thinking abt. is it Job or family or me? i DUN NOE!

Prawning

2007-07-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

too many things happen these days... my mood kind of fluctuates around my small tiny body... It think sometimes getting thru stuff like these may be tough just like making friends stay together and also understanding their thoughts and feelings... Fainted... i was so enthusiatic gg for the prawning on wed but little did we realise things happen just within the spilt second. all of us were having dinner happily but after dat some ppl just went there own way. saying dat her bf haf rash. sian half...

2007-03-09T14:11:00.000+08:00

Life is unpredictable...

Birthday Celebration at Down Town East

2006-11-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

Lets take a photo together 1st incase later too busy... Do we look alike?

11 November 2006.

My Birthday Party!

The days just past so fast dat we haf begin to prepare for the night. Have to be beautiful for 21st birthday right? i think most of you will agree with me.I arranged on 1 weekend before my birthday.

hahaha... preparation for the night! Tying up my hair with my favourite french twist! <-----This is not nice

I AM TRYING AGAIN

How about this i think it look much beta right?

hahaha... Yeahz!!!

Blow harder la... y no strength 1?

this is my boyfriend using all his precious carbon dioxide for my birthday balloons.

(Found those balloons in the cardboard it was left behind few years ago, but its still working!)

Let's start!

Starting the fire now! With the help of my sister, cousins and my Boyfriend...

Update the rest another day!

My bf and me!

My Cake

Bf and me and my cake!

LOOK HERE LA, DEAR!

Cant go malaysia for dinner

2006-11-05T14:17:00.000+08:00

Cant go with sis Hahaha.... Have to go for malay new year dinner with boyfriend today...

Dilemma

2006-10-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

A very scary day, I am so upset over somethings dat happened this evening… Cooked at his house today, and the standard for today’s food was very poor. Only able to eat. Cos both of us are in a very low mood. Its something dats not too good though. But I believe dat me and my bf can solve it today de.,, But the results will onli be released next month 8-10… Not too sure when yet cos its too early to predict… There is something which is more important then dat, which is I am going to have my exams on the 30, 1 and the 7th… Which is like this coming Monday. Have been burying myself in piles and piles of books measure 3 inches each not including the notes. Its like when I am going out to study with my friends, I got to take a bus which the 2kg bag to go to the destination… Just hope dat I will do well in my exams and the thingy will be ok… Thanks dude! For reading

Sha Gua Birthday...

2006-08-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

hehe... today is dear dear's birthday... at last after the long wait, i can reveal all my secrets to him. Its so hard to keep secrets lor... but kinda of shag today as after school, i went alot of places. Trying to keep it a mystery for him. But haiz he found out a bit le... The moment he opened up the scrapbook that i had given to him, you can see his face like shock like dat.. Really spent alot of time on it. and my parents keep asking me will he treasure it a not i say he will. I also believe that he will take good care of it... Yeah! he is happy and itws a best birthday dat he had... see got cake and romantic lightings too... keke... gtg. (*sniffing) xiao gong zhu shang

School Starts... Excited...

2006-08-01T17:56:00.000+08:00

Hahaha... sch starts le... Dear birthday is tonight after 12am... school is tiring when ur sch is a distant away from your house... Met new ppl at sch and new friends in sch... Recently, got sick and not feeling very well. But my relationship is still in good contact like the previous few months and i believe a relationship dont have to spend every moment with him but to treasure the time you haf with him. I appreciate the things that he had done for me and i love him so much. How to celebrate his birthday? (*pondering*) What to gif him? sch got no homework but the lecturer is from Australia. Very boring 1, and he dont repeat wat he had said to us... University life is more about reading up urself and understanding wat they say in class.. No extra lessons and more expensive also... got to go read text book le... Looking forward for tmr.. Keke... Tata

me back again...

2006-07-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

got to update this cos my bf complain me say i nv update my blog these days but is cos busy and my mum is 24 / 7 using the comp so i cant use lor... hehehe... back from Europe for a very long time and nv got a job so decided to go help my bf's boss shop $200.00 dollars for a month. though its not much but i need not pay some of my meals hahaha... sponsored... sian half now this week i will be having my Cramps... like gg to break a part soon le... dun noe y always like dat de... kinda of tired these days... and me soon gg to start my sch at SIM liao le. SO friends looking at my blog, feel free to contact me but will be quite busy before sch starts and also currently looking for a part time job to work during my off days from sch... Any one can help?? hahaa... dear dear birthday is around the corner le. but i dun noe wat to gif him. Its like wat he ask for i did not get him cos i cant get the answer out leh... Its really tough. Thought for like 1 month le but nv got the answer and also kept asking ard and no one knoes the answer leh... sob sob... nevertheless, i got him something dun noe whether he would like it a not. Its something very simple leh... i also dun noe, but just hope he like it, i nv got time to prepare anything for him as i keep on go out wif him... so bought smt lor... Sorry,,, i am kind of happy, these days really spend alot of time with him. i think i have to start to think wat things can i tok to him abt le or else, we will be toking lesser and lesser le... just went to install my grandfather's ashes today at Madai.. Truthfully spending, i just cant get over the grief of my grandfather's death. Its like too sudden and i dun feel that he has left us. something like cant accept it...haiz... Just dun noe y...

paris

2006-06-14T14:02:00.000+08:00

Its a long trip to europe this time and this is the first time that i am coming to Europe this time. Its pretty interesting here... and luckily i got a laptop here wif ,e to store my pictures... Actually thought that i am able to use laptop to go online but the wireless network got some problems... now i am using their computer downstairs my hotel lobby.. the computer here is very weird. i navigate thru the web by wat i haf rmb cos all the wording are in French and the stupid keyboard too... went to eiffel tower yesterdqy, it was very ver nice... leaving for disney lqnd Paris soon::: take care dude...

2 days passed

2006-05-31T16:52:00.000+08:00

2 days have already passed. The past 2 days are not as hard as today. Today morning dear called me. He say he gg to go outfield le. So not calling me for today til tmr morning when he return to his camp. Perhaps, he did not bring his hp along with him ba… I am also not too sure. If he did bring his hp wif him, he will be calling me tonight. Lets see by then. Btw, its 4.44pm now.. Me still sitting in the office gonna to end work @ 7pm le… den got to go home. Mum at home with granny. And granny is sick… and the cabbage (china man) came to Singapore for holiday… So everyone one is like running ard and bringing them ard… hahaa… Not gg out these days and no mood also.. dear dear not here.. so every nite, I sleep with eee eee… and in another few more days me gg to London le… and I would miss my dear even more. And my boss is gg to Indonesia tmr. And coming back on 5th June… den see him for like 2 days den I am gone le.. Den gg see sis le. Got so many things to tell her… and work got so tough and I need to employ ppl to do it for me. As I cant do it.. haiz… asked all my friends le but they all same cheem leh. So no one can help. And ask dinosaur, I think he knoe but he will only come back on Friday lor… sian diao…

Reservice???

2006-05-29T11:16:00.000+08:00

Alex when for reservice liao le... now i am left alone for 5 days. can onli see him 5 days later... kinda of laid back. i dont felt like doing anything. I was reluntant to go to work. M is not working le. and i just felt like staying at home to accompany her. The china cabbage is coming tmr. Wat will happen? will we be going out for dinner or lunch wif him these few days? EEE EEE came home yest. He bought him home. EEE EEE got his house smell. THe moment i sniffed it, i smell the smell dat i missed so much. The same smell of the house and his clothes... He left this morning for Tanjong Rul camp already... Hope everything is fine over there and he will come back in 5 days time. And heavenly father up there, please dont rain cos it will make him more umcomfortable. Hope he can return on Friday afternoon and i can meet him in the night... Going for holiday soon. when he come back, its time i will have to start packing my stuff... Tata

IsTanA

2006-05-02T10:10:00.000+08:00

wow, just realised that Istana is so deep inside... we took a long walk yesterday there from PS... den went thru the security check... when we 1st went in, guess wat we saw? we saw GRASS... and a golf course... hahahaaa.... after for like a 15-30 mins walk, den we saw the ISTANA...

A NIGhT oF ShoCk...

2006-04-21T13:03:00.000+08:00

Guess wat happened yesterday night?

a met my ex bf yesterday night for dinner...

everything went fine. dinner at mac. den we walked down the river side and tok lar...

den later after finish smoking, he said lets go to marina south.

i say ok lar. cos i also dun noe where he wan go.

he drove there. we went to the Marina South Pier's toilet den we went off le..

he asked u been to the place where u can see the night scene a not. i say no. so he drove there road under construction. but he still went in...

... reached 1 place can park 1. the scenery there really looks very very nice. how nice is it that i got my camera wif me...

he suddenly ask me 1 qns... he askes:"can u satisfy me tonight?"

though i disagree, he keep on asking lor. den tell me 1 time onli lar. any way my gf nv manage to do it for me. she is like so busy and we onli meet once a week.

i continue disagreeing. but he nv stop asking... haiz... got kind of sick of it already. dun think too much. i nv agree...

i said:" u keep on askin not bored meh? and if u still persist on asking, the answer is still the same. i am not that lose kind of girl. and i wun agree to it 1. lastly, i said u try asking again and i will nv contact u le."

he still continued though i said that. he started with smt like this:" u threatening me?" i said yes.

later i really cant stand it already and i came out with 1 sentence. if this continues, i will not be ur friend any more and if u dare, try me out... in a very stern manner... den kept quiet... the quiet moment last for abt more than 10-15 mins.

i turn away. wanting to leave the van le. he pressed on the lock and said where u wan go? there are lot of sand flies outside.

i said:"i wan go home." he asked me to turn back and look at him. he asked again u sure u wan go home? i said yes... "ok den lets go home now!" "just now all those are all testing u onli. u haf passed the test."

he is sick in his mind. guess wat he said after dat. i am just trying to test whether u still like me a not... wat the hell man

SmiLe??

2006-04-15T12:34:00.000+08:00

hehehee.... some one once to me.

your smile can brighten up every one's day. is it true?

but basically, i am a happy go lucky person. but since i started working, i kind of get stress up over some times and at some times..

nvm so i tried to keep my smile. not just to make myself happy, but also to make everyone happy... take care dude...

ReJecTeD??

2006-04-13T17:43:00.000+08:00

haiz... starting my long story once again. i am not good at writing neither am i good at expressing myself. sometimes i just dun noe y. i tend to find trouble with him. it seems like i cant live without him or not meeting him or he not contacting me dats wat he said me. mayb his true. but its just dat i nv realise that onli...

since i started working, i knew a guy downstairs... some one not handsome, not short. just dat i see him every morning... lol...

saying back to my depress story. haf a feeling of rejection when i saw the letter that was on my table the night before. Its from NUS. Not approved. Its written there. i know i am prepared for the consequences but not fully prepared.

My period is here once again. as Usual, i got bad tempered wif him. felt down, felt tired these days... dun understand y is dat so.

1 thing i am happy abt is dat my boss say the website is not bad. i just made some changes. i also need to put up the pictures of my products. i dun haf much time to edit them. only to do when i am free... sorry boss, i dun haf any friends which are able to do this for you free... got to get back to work already...

Jia You Gambate...

sobz sobz...

2006-04-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

i didnt realise waiting for someone aimlessly is so hard.

i waitied for him til 10+ at last he called me. he called me at 6+ saying can we tok. before dat, he say he gg help his mum do OT. wats OT? it means over time. my dad message me in the late afternoon saying granny cooked my dinner. but after i gone home, i looked at the amount of rice, it was like so little. wat the... is my luck really so bad?

lunch meet jie for lunch. walked all my way down from Far East Shopping Center to Taka. den meet her for lunch. den must hurry also cos they need to rush for meeting after lunch... i walked very very very fast le...

after lunch just realised that, my feet have some scratches. not really scratched lar. like peeling of like dat lor... blisters that waat ppl called it.... so painful...

Not Meeting ALEX....

at work i did the editing for the images using photoshop. i asked my friend to teach me. den i was so happy. cos i managed to do quite a few images. but later on, i showed my boss, he say not suitable. k lor. den i deleted all. after dat, i dun even haf any mind set of carrying on doing le. sianz.... but the day gg end le...

after work walked to the bus stop behind. not meeting him. so must go home alone. i dislike to go home.

raining
no umbrella
borrow umbrealla
drizzling
cross over head bridge
leg pain
bus nv come
no money cant take cab
go home so sianz....
home not enuf rice

tata...

sob sobz...

Roses?

2006-04-01T12:40:00.000+08:00

He gave me a bouquet of 12 roses yesterday... curious wat happened yesterday?? if u r just read on ba... yesterday was just a normal day. came to office and start doing things. until the afternoon. thought abt there is a need for doing stock take at Charm Of Venus. so i went down to COV. before dat, i was having lunch wif my dearest bf. after lunch, i went down to COV. the night before was tough for me . i teared the whole night until i fell asleep. i was at COV, looking at the brochure for flowers of NOEL and JOAQIUM. a man called out: Ms Cindy Ong den i go erm... i am ... its a delivery man holding onto a bouquet of 12 pink roses. he asked me to sign. the 1st question a asked the man. who send this flowers. he told me str in the face saying there is a card. den i stunned. i signed the delivery order. and he went off lkike the wind. my friend and i was the only 2 person in the shop. she say must be ur bf send 1 lor. i opened the card anxiously. it was him the card written:

its a secret.

hahahaa...

haiya, got words inside lar. it touched me deep down inside. i go stunning and stoning the whole day. went back office with the flowers. attracting everyone in the train on the way back to office and on my way back home...

so happy yest...

IT F@iR @ SuntEc...

2006-03-10T11:32:00.000+08:00

My day started very nicely, everything is in place. When passed by suntec, i saw a lot of pants. SO nice. Want to go in but working so cant... nvm... so went down to COV... BtW, im working at Far East Shopping Centre and Suntec City, COV means Charm Of Venus. Can visit the shop or the webby too... www.charmofvenus.com. Yest i drank a soup with lotsa of MSG... its a killer. It nearly cost my life. I felt so uncomfortable like my whole head and neck is falling a part. Thought of lying down somewhere... but no place leh... den my dearest walked to jigsaw world all i saw was the chair... i lied down there. FLAT... den suddenly felt so comfortable like feeling much beta already. But LEX: Can u dun lie this way, u knoe there are alot of ppl looking at u. me: haiya, nvm lar, let them see lor. After awhile LEX: hei can u just get up? u tired or wat also dun lie like this is very ugly lor. sounding very pissed... me: i took too much of MSG, if i lie down i will feel beta. Shouted back at him: DEN LETS GO HOME NOW... dat moment, aft i stood up, i feel that i am gg faint already,,, but i held on... when i am stress in the office, i also nv flare at him, i controlled my temper. the moment he show me his power, i was like quite angry. cos i dun mean to do anything funny but its the fact that i really need a moment of rest... nvm lar... its over... 1st time see Lex get angry... ghahahahaa..

Valentin3's D@y...

2006-02-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

noting special, yet sumting memorable...

dinner at sakae sushi... excellent sushi dishes. expecially their salmon... fresh and delicious!!! yum yum...

sssshhhhh.... we are walking pass a chocolate shop name "chocz" @ marina square...

A: "i have nv receive choc on valentine's day before"

C: "i buy gif u eat.."

A: "Dun wan lar"

C: "Please i beg u, beg u..." c continued begging and pestering A

hahahaa... everyone's watching me pestering him... "let me buy u chocolate lar..." haiyo... 1st time leh... u got see before buy for the person, but must beg him let me buy leh... wahahaa... we bought a pair of watch from 25 hours... nice nice... happy happy..

SmilinG ProfessioN

2006-02-10T09:46:00.000+08:00

hei my dearest bf, i dun care who is looking at my blog. but i wan tell u here. dun worry abt me. if i cry, all i need is u. for wat u knoe? hug me, tok to me and explain to me.

i need time to accept all the facts. i also need to understand u, not just u understand me.

dear, i knoe smt i am very demanding. i just cant change it. i am trying day by day. i dun noe how to make u happy.

but 1 thing i knoe,smiling is my profession. i would not NOT smile de... keke... take care,,

Backie,,,

2006-02-07T15:23:00.000+08:00

dear is back... the moment before i saw him, i am like smiling to myself... hahaa... dun noe y also... so funny. den very gan jiong. den he told me his fat already, (*wondering how he looks when he grows fat... wahahaa...keke...*)

he opens the door, i hid below the blanket... gigglingto myself... he comes in... he grab me... the comfortable... like my sis say like dat he went for 5 years ar? lol,,,

i am not trying to compare. but its different from my ex... the feeling is like cant leave without "oops... not leave. is live"...

it really a feeling of miss... MISS u knoe what is it??

later on, he gave me the things that he bought for me... so happy. got present leh... not just 1 is many many...

i first saw was a tortise purse made of beads... so cute.. he say he buy is because i always call him tortise... hahaa... den i saw smt that shocked me, polo ralph... my all longed present. someone act bought for me... its been like 2 years le... waiting for the perfume le... thinking of this, i kind of sad. cos i dun noe wat dear want or like... very 失败 hor... haiz... den got my coach eyepoach...

some more got a jacket. den he told me he also bought 1 for Carol. the SAME one..

i kinda of "........." dun noe wat to say...

getting the same thing wif another girl... haiz...

nth to say sia... wat to do leh, he say buy 2 cheaper price mah... economically is ok lar... but i also dun noe...

It A New Day...

2006-02-06T13:14:00.000+08:00

What if one day i am dead, What if one day i am sick, What if one day i am crying, What if one day i am injuried, What if one day i am alone? If all this really happen to me and everyone decides to leave me, den please dun come back again. leave me alone to care abt myself, if u think i am that strong to handle it all by myself, dun come back. or u wun haf a chance to leave again. if i am dead, or dying, ppl sure will die 1 day. but wat if it happens to me, dun feel sad. u all shld b angry wif me. as i nv obey u all, i nv listen so if i find it for myself. promise me all of u will be happy, enjoying the rest of ur life. to all my friends, i treasured u all like the accessories that i haf. i cared for all of u. those who understand me, knows that if they haf problems and they will to approach me, i will help them no matter wat. so take care and dun worry abt me. i am fine. perfectly fine... to all close family members. like wat i haf said, dun b sad. live like the previous time. i admit that i am not a good daughter. ma, i knoe i always finding quarrels wif u. gif me abit of time. i am trying my best to accomodate wif wat u say. its due to my temper, perhaps i am not that kind that will give in. but smt when i tok things nicely to u, but u always think i am finding fault wif u. which is wat i nv wanna try doing... it hurts me right down my heart. i dun mind any one tok bad or say abt me. i dun mind anyone not understand me i dun mind anyone not listen to me. but ma, u cannot mistake me as ur enemy.. i love u so much. i just cant take it when u start to misunderstand me... jie, i think u knoe me. i dun need to say much... dear, as for u. things dat we haf been thru cant be measured in any way. it a memory dat we once shared together. i knoe no matter wat, when i am angry, u are there to cool me down. when i am sad, u are there to make me understand. when i am bored, u are there to tok to me. when i need a listening ear, u are there to listen to my sorrows. the time when u went on a holiday, i start to realise that most of my time are spent wif u. smt i dun even understand myself. perhaps u understand me more than myself. take care love ya ..

holiday...

2006-02-03T13:26:00.000+08:00

dear dear went beijing.. mei mei in Spore..

how? how? how?

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feeling sick today...

i drop him a msg saying

lets not contact til he is back...

wondering will he listen??

just not wen i stand up,

felt a sense of giddyness.

felt a sense of vommit

after lunch,

felt the same...

so tired...

so full...

so relectant...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

dear when will u be back...

wait til sunday...

meet on mon...

tata,,,

hope grandfather(gf) will be discharge from hospital soon...

OUCH!!!

2006-01-25T11:13:00.000+08:00

i am in pain... how? dear, say no milk and tea. dat includes cholocates...

how how? i am really in pain now... cramps, y must u come??

haiz...

no time for scrapping... too busy these days must meet up wif my bf, he is gg for holiday... else i cant see him for 1 week. it may sound short to all of u, but its very long for me... will be like thinking and dreaming of him...

MENS CRAMPS... sicko...

cos if i start scrapping now, i need to clear up all my scrap stuff... must hurry scrap of my things will be like standing there in a corner of my room... hahaaha...

take care...

"weird" - "werid" - "werdi"

2006-01-24T10:57:00.000+08:00

felt weird again...

perhaps is wat he said yest struck me... ooo... swensen is his fav place no matter is he sad, or happy. me? i think i dun haf 1. nvm...
i onli knoe i love the sea. just when i am sad, i will go to esplanade and side by the sea and hear the sound of the sea.

he said hope i will visit there more times den someone. the moment when he said this, i dun knoe how to react sia.... just stun and started to stone,,, i seriously was thinking coming here more times mean that i meant more to him? isit so? i dont dun. or he is trying to tell me, i have to win the person? (*huh*)

supposingly, this shld be a very happy moment together. i waiting aimlessly for him for 3 hours for him to finish his class for an ice cream treat.. hahaa...

yah, he say some happy moments were, his friend came to fetch him down to celebrate for his 21st birthday. i was like so 羡慕 him lor... cos i dun think my 21st birthday, my friend will even help me celebrate. cos i dun even knoe who are my friends.

my friends are just hanging a plate written "I AM CINDY"S FRIEND" like dat onli. when i am in need leh, all dun knoe run go where hide. i onli knoe in poly, mei help me alot. or i wun be here lor...

i also dun noe, just a bit of mixed feelings ba...
felt so weird now... dun ask me wats wrong. i dun noe... i think i am being left out. Those kind of feeling like no one cares for me. haiz... wats wrong wif me?
a: ppl need to work, cant always msg u de...
p: but haf to wait for me to msg den he reply meh?
p: how can like this de, taking it for granted dat i will send a afternoon msg lor.
a: "nono, ppl busy mah, u must try to understand"
p: den who understand me? i in office also will bored de. always hear dat kind of sian sian mood.
p: if not happy say no happy lar..
a: "inconvient to tok mah..
p: haiz... lonely feeling leh... if i haf friends ard, i also wun bother him de..

p:Bye...

Oversea...

2006-01-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

dear, dear is gg overseas le... its just a few days later de thing.. haiz... kinda of sian leh... but heng it happens during chinese new year. for the 2 days of holiday, i will be busy running errands from house to house... so not so free also... thinking China must be very cold. so worried for him... hope that he will not be frozen when he come back... den from chu 3 to chu 5, i will be a good good girl. gg home after work... also dun noe whether he will msg or call me when he go there for the period a not... cos the calling back will be like very expensive lor... hope that he got enuff cash... go holiday mah, must got money spend den will happy rite?? lol... these days he will beri tight... hope that he can finish all his bill and things will be fine on his side... the mood between us seems to change abit (*thinking), its like, i tried to joke ard and not to take things so hard sometimes, but he will make it so stressful and tiring for me... i feel that these days, he seems to be like saying things to me not even thinking... trying to target me in some way. or mayb i think to much le ba... i knoe his work is hard, but i am also having my attachment, i am also trying to adapt to it... i nv complained abt my work anymore. unless the days, i am really very tired. imagine, when u are already very tired already and u got funny things dat u dun wish will happen... haiyo, u all read le... dun pity me leh... just let me complain k... i grumble finish, i will be fine later de... cos i knoe, i am also giving him these things,,, so i will try to understand... keke.... perhaps, both of our character are too similar ba... like wat people always say, in a couple, and in a relationship is not just spending happy moments together... understanding, trust and sharing sad and unhappy moments make the bond stronger and closer...

i believe the person i love, loves me.

i believe the person i trust, trust me.

i believe the person i miss, misses me.

i believe the person i tok to, tok to me.

believing a part of me for him..

a part of my heart is already filling up wif his images and actions. even before he is gg to china, i am already missing him badly... i just hope i can spend all my time wif him before he goes to china... take care

Dear...

2006-01-16T16:06:00.000+08:00

alot of things to say leh... 1--> go dear dear house look after him, cos he is sick. bring him go see doctor(13/01/2005) 2--> go cityhall... buy alot of thigns 3--> buy chen yi xun cd for him 4--> buy boi + gal keychain 5--> buy giraffe 6--> buy toilet bowls and still toilet bowls.. this month must save $$$ le, dear the bill wow, alot leh... but i gg buy scrap thingy today... so also dun noe leh... hope dun spend too much ba... ***Wish Wish*** manage to get into a lucky draw cost we spend alot of money... get a precious moments notepad free leh... it looks so cute... the giraffe is will kiss 1 leh... pai seh lar, i not dat romantic. cos when i wan to gif u a surprise, u ALWAYS found out de... i am still trying lar... dun noe when will i surprise u again... take care

Long WeekEnd

2006-01-11T09:33:00.000+08:00

i had a long weekend, my stomach was not feeling very well on mon, soo i did not come to work... wahahaa... stayed at home the whole day and at last ended my cleaning of my room at 3am yest... hahaha... tues, went chinatown. actually there were alot of people. then, it started the drizzle and rain after awhile... guess wat... i made an action and he laughed all the way... just love the way he laughed. make ppl also feel like its so funny. even its not... lots of things happened in chinatown. dear folks if u are gg to chinatown, people's park complex is already opened. and rmb to haf u dinner 1st den go. cos there will be lots of ppl queueing for a munch,,, small quarrels happened... *************************************************** When things are there, appreciate it When u lose it, think of it cos u can nv find another 1 to replace it... Treasure wat u have now! ***************************************************

Quiet??

2006-01-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

IT A QUIET AFTERNOON... had a tired nite yesterday making cookies... but very happy, i shared my cookies with my collegues... they said its very nice... some said abit sweet...

Selling Cookies...

2006-01-04T13:00:00.000+08:00

today dear not free to meet me. so me gg out wif sis to buy cookies ingredients at bugis de Phoon Huat...

New Year Days...

2006-01-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

hohohoo... 2006 come lieo le... 2005 go lieo le... guess wat new year eve the heaven give us water... many many... den we all cannot got bbq at east coast... carry the things into the car le... on ECP, raining cats and dogs... planned cancelled... we made an U-TURN home... the things so heavy sia... sis and her bf worst still... stuck in their tent sia... cos raining,,, some more the tent got lobang... they got shelter like dun haf... come out all wet also... wahahaa... bbq at home... dear went cut hair sia, so neat can say handsome ba...and very pang... wahahaa... he like went for a cleaning session den come my house like dat sia... watch fireworks 1st time watching in my house wif my bf sia... somemore this time got 2 spots got fireworks at the same time...nicee nicee.... after eating, played mahjong... end of mahjong at ard 3.45 like dat den jie's bf send alex home... by the time he reached home, i already oinkz le... before the day came to an end, my sis toked to me... somethings dat i shld not haf done and not say... 1-1-2006 mummy called jie up on her hp, telling her things dat she want me to knoe and daddy also said me... its not a good start... the jigsaw is hung up, its so nice... really big when i saw it hung up... have a very satisfied feeling... i cried again... i asked lex, did i really did smt wrong, he told me yes. and he was pretty amazed abt wat i did on dat particular nite... haiz... its all me, being inmatured and stupid, doing the wrong thing at the wrong time... its not i am trying to find excuses, but i haf nv bring a bf home to meet my parents before, i dun knoe wat i shld do and wat i shld not do, like wat lex said. dat i agreed to him. i did not mean to do anything like dat. but i just granny came home yest, she also said me... haiz...

D3@R iS SICK!!

2005-12-29T09:55:00.001+08:00

dear dear is sick,,, haiz... hope he get well soon... me so worried for him... sick still dun wan rest more. still insist of sending me home... i send u home today no matter wat. i not so good 1 hor, u need to repay me 1. buy me a eyelash curler lor... wahaha... joking lar... i not dat materialistic... *wishing upon a star, dear pls get well soon*

ChriStMas...DaY,,,

2005-12-27T10:56:00.000+08:00

long, tired... sad, happy... relax, enjoyable... a long holiday... a tired day... running from places to places.... a sad day... hearing smt undelightful... happy after some tok... relax... stay at home... enjoyable... doing think that is unforgetable... dear, i really cant lose you... makin u happy is just part of my life i can say... i also cant do much, i may not knoe wat u haf done for me, but i knoe 1 think u are tolerating wif my nonsense... i always gif u attitude... but i really cant help it smt... me...

ALARM CLOCK...

2005-12-22T16:35:00.000+08:00

today we suppose to meet for breakfast and he pass me his keys. but wat happen? my alarm clock nv ring at 5.45am... i woke up at 6.45am... called him, he still at home... den he say his alarm clock also dun knoe y nv ring... hahaa... so funny sia... den i said nvm i meet u at night lor... no breakfast le... when i saw my alarm clock its 7.16pm... wow, heng i faster change it or i dun need to go work le... xiao gong zhu shang

Open Cermony....

2005-12-21T11:00:00.000+08:00

hi, i am back here again... nth really happen yest... Just a open ceremony... last minute cancellation of project meeting... enabled me to meet up wif him... is not me having project meeting is he... y? cos he is studying... studying very hard to get a qualification... kinda of happy for him too... cos this world is very realistic.. u got no cert, dun even think u can survive here... Bao Bei Jia You... me ar... now sorethroat sia... very pain, dun even feel like toking and eating or evern drinking lor... yest we did jigsaw the 2000 pieces 1... abit happy lar. cos can help him fulfil his dream. though we haven fulfilled it, i knoe its just a matter of time... we sure can do it together de,,, and i reached home at ard 12.45am lor... 1st time in life... den he took a cab back home... total $30.00 wow! expensive rite?? hahaa... i am like thinking wat i can gif him for christmas sia... erm... "A Hug", "A Kiss", "A Kopi" ?? haiya, everyone knoe i very poor 1 mah... and i also so stupid, dun noe wat to buy sia... if i make things den he dun like how? he hint me that i nv buy things for him before le... so i must crack my little brain and think of wat to get for him... today need to go home... cos mummy alone at home... can go back watch VCD wif her... Dear burnt a new set of serial of me... Hurray!!! so happy... and also sleepy... tata xiao gong zhu shang...

Mickey ExplOrinG The WorLD...

2005-12-20T14:02:00.000+08:00

haven been typing for the past 6 days... sorry to let ppl who want to knoe wats happening to my life waited. but if u wan knoe den u must wait mah... yest, we went to get the jig saw... guess wat buy jig saw also got things happening sia... we went bugis wanting to but mickey exploring the world jigsaw. (*dear's wish is to get it fixed up 2000 pieces sia) so we were like checking out the price and dear folks, if you want to buy jigsaw, you can go jigsaw world.. its currently having a 10% for non members and 20% for members... we saw the price at bugis was $88.00 den frame is $128-158 the price is wow... dear sm more sia say wan do 4000 pieces 1... 400 i sure say ok 1... but 4000 leh... hang where? and the more pieces the more expensive is the puzzle and the frame lor... hahaa... heng nv buy or i die le... den i rmb jigsaw world got 10% so its like $92-$9.2 = $82.80, hei can save $5.80 leh... can eat 2 bowls of prawn mee... hahaa... so the both of us say. k we go down jigsaw world see the frame, mayb cheaper leh...

we met someone at the entrance of Bugis... Gues?? u wun get it right 1... Its dear's ex-gf... so surprised... she is wif another guy, i thought it her bf leh... but not...

den we go SunTec Le...

...Walk Walk, Walk Faster walk Faster, Walk even faster Walk even Faster...Reached le... Chiong ar... jigsaw world, here Alex And Cindy comes... We walked in happily, wow we reached liao le... heng the 10% still available... can save abit of $$$ le... @@ left @@ right @@ high @@ low "dear where is it?" "haiya, i very fast can find de lar.." salesgirl: "What are you looking for? o.... the mickey exploring the world ar? "OUT OF STOCK LE... NO MORE ALREADY" WHAT?? OUT OF STOCK?? Dear we have to walk back to bugis le... salesgirl: "wait i call PS, and ask whether they have it a not" "HUH, JUST SOLD OUT" i just suddenly found out that Singaporeans like Mickey a lot... and that particular set has stop manufacturing already... so left with 300 pieces and 2000 pieces... but nvm, we bought the same frame there with a discount that saved us 10 bucks...hahaa... not bad also leh... onli if they haf the puzzle den i can get the membership le lor...

on the way back... the string broke... the uncle(jigsaw world de ren) lar, dun noe how to tie 1 leh...

waLked bAck To BuGis... To buy the puzzle. heng still have sia...

i stood outside to retie the string... dear, went in to buy the puzzle... think is also last piece le...

meet up wif the pair dat i mentioned just now.. to drink high class kopi... went starbucks no space. went coffee bean, closing in 10 mins time... so 4 of us sat there and tok cock, drank 2 cups of H20 each.... den went of 10pm...

the girl of same age as me... wow, she is so slim... i think her waise is 24" sia...

but dear yesterday night 1 st time say i pretty lor... hahaa... flying sia... abit hard to believe leh...

yeah... think gg to help dear make his dream come true,,, by completing the puzzle... jai you wo...

xiao gong zhu shang...

Soya Bean ...

2005-12-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

wishing to drink soya bean milk for the pass few days. but i just nv see anywhere selling on my way to work... haiz...

Petty * Understanding

2005-12-14T23:01:00.000+08:00

wrong information was given to me to on my computer to night...

i on it, and i dun need it... wat the hell?

nvm, shld be more understanding rite? its ok de, cos i also cant help too...

waited for to reach home. but he sounds so tired.

den asked him to go sleep.

i knoe i shld also not wait and off my comp and go slp...

nites

xiao gong zhu shang...

woRkinG towarD a More UndErStandInG....

2005-12-13T10:53:00.000+08:00

... jia you wo...

昨天是我的错吗??

我也不懂。

有某一些事或字,

我说过我不喜欢听见。

可是他把我说过的话,

全部都忘了。

人的记忆力真的差吗?

可是,无论他对我说过什么话,

是真是假, 我都会相信。

他是个信守诺言,

和一个不会骗我的人。

虽然说了这一番话，我还是那么的喜欢他。

[无论出任何代价，

我愿帮助你, 不取报酬。

无论如何爱上你,我没有后悔过。

恋爱是盲目的,

爱情是不分贫富的。]

xiao gong zhu shang...

sobz....

2005-12-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

wat a day, again it happened, he say he wun say the word "shut up" but he said it just now when we were watching movie... while is he always saying he not doing it but he still do it leh?? haiz... i dun noe my leg really hurts,,, when i told him, when we were downstairs, he looked at me, mayb he is thinking dat i am lying or i expect him to carry me, but i did not,,, just waiting for him to say something dat show that he is concern over me. or mayb he can say is ur heels dat make ur leg hurts. but he nv... when gg to leave, he just say thanks for the movie and bye... and i walked myself down the flight of stairs, dragging myself back home...nites...

TiReD... OvErSlept....

2005-12-12T10:47:00.000+08:00

oinkz,,, so tired sia...... this morning everytime my alarm clock rang, i hammer it down,,, til the 3rd time usually, i will wake up. but the interesting thing, it nv happen today... i carried on sleeping til 7.35am my dad came and ask me... "u not woking today ar??" oops... i woke up after he told me its 7.30 already... haiz,,, gonna to be late... i also dunnoe wats happening to me today. i forgot to call dear also... when i called him, its already 8.50 already..he's still sleeping... heng not yet 9am sia... he left the house when i was having my breakfast,,, sian,,, sit in the office also feel like sleeping... the other day i went scrapping. its a friday...like i have said i was meeting my best friend cha siew bao at {PS} for dinner. but at 6 plus she is still at Hougang her friend's house. so say if u cannt reach at dat time den nvm, we meet up some other days ba... she say ok. den i nv eat my dinner... (*not dat hungry*) and i went to the class wif a bottle of honey lemon... dear went for his class, i also went for my class... we took 1 hrs plus to scrap 6 pages... time really past very very fast... Made With Love took pictures of us. they say the papers and magazines want them to take pictures of us having classes. and we were the 1st bunch that they are taking... nvm... dun care they take their pictures we did our scrap no time to be bothered abt them... {where and when will they publish?} the class people ranges from different age group. There are all girls dun need to say... there is a gal a few years younger than me, and the rest are older, either aunties, or newly-weds... Spending time til 10.45pm den we ended the class... hahaa,,, so late rite,,, dear finishes his class at 10pm and he went to collect his lappy from his friend. den i was very hungry at dat moment... before i finsh, i ask him whether wanna go eat supper, den he say ok and say he say he will come down and find me at {PS}... he reaches before i finish... waited for me... i shld not ask him down, he looks so shag,,, haiya... heart pain see him like this... he nagged at me when he found out the cost my scrap papers... oops... i am dead,,, i suddenly realised that mayb i am spending a bit... and another thing is that he is a good nagger... hahaa... went to teresa's house too (*for her birthday*) nv buy anything for her just spent from 11+am - 4am doing up a birthday card for her... scrapping it... hope she like it... i myself also like it alot... hahaa.... sunday went to see my cousin, she is much beta le... just pray for her ba... Jia You Wo...

H3 BuSy???

2005-12-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

this 2 days very sian. yest and today... yest, i got to go to the hospital to visit my cousin, so i cant meet him. sian diao... gg down to town just to haf dinner and chiong go down NUH to visit mei mei... she looks a bit scared, but not showing it. very one is so worried for her... she is onli 15, and she have to for an operation. so sad... nv meet dear... went home, nth to do... so lonely. he got to do his project work so i ask him go do. cos if he dun start doing, i dun noe when will he haf time to do le... so i sit at home and watch tv... all my serial vcd all finish watching already. den nth to do. my sis watching her serial vcd dat i already finished watching and using the computer to watch it. so i cant play le... today, is a day dat i haf been waiting for a long time... i am gg for scrapbooking lesson at PS... is because he have lesson so i registered for it. its not free. must pay de. hahaa... abit happy lar... but today, he sounds like he is worried and fustrated over his work or for some other reasons. he just say i tell u, u also cant help. but he dun tell me i more worried sia... mayb busy ba. lets wait til tonight den see... lesser phone calls le... by the time he reached home, he need to do his things. he called me, den i sleep le... see lar... hahaha.... lets say abt tmr, i am gg Boon Lay Jane's house, seeing what she got and see whether can i find what i need there... think i am a bit siao over scrap le... *Getting a bit out of hand* After Jane's house den mayb meeting my mum for lunch. den go down together to see mei mei at NUH. *wonder how is she now...* But depends on ma wan to go down a not. and dun noe will ah ma be at home. if she dun wan go down, i will go down. stay awhile den meet dear for Theresa's birthday party thingy... erm... present?? i dun noe... keke... dad's working morning shift tmr means from 8am til 8pm. so ... Bren's also working tmr til dun noe wat time... she is not coming back home tonight too... Going to Donny's birthday party and staying there til morning. dun noe she can tahan a not, cos i think they are not sleeping so... think u understand lar... i gg end my work already... meeting jiabao my bestest best friend for dinner den i go scrap le... hahaaa.... wohoo... counting down... leaving at 5.25pm. to take the bus to Kallang MRT den go dohby Gaut... i dun noe spell correct a not.. hahaa... take care dudes.... Xiao Gong Zhu shang

#### ---->UnderStandIng <------- ####

2005-12-08T14:58:00.000+08:00

Today is 8th December… my closest and younger cousin who is in secondary school is going to the hospital today… the doctor found that her spinal cord is crook so he ask the parents whether want to let her undergo a surgery to straighten her backbone... she is still young, so her bone will still grow... her operation is tmr... i have scrap lesson at PS from 6.30-9.30pm. so i think mayb i shld be gg down after my scrap, it depends on wat time we finish tmr too... so worried for her... the scar will be on the back. so she cant wear bare back clothing le i think... unless she dun mind. like me like dat lar, live wif my birthmark for over 20 years le... if people ask means that they are curious and concern about you. they are not trying to make you "ma lu". dats wat i think. if they wan knoe then i will tell them de... back to my cousin issue. i am gg down tonight to see her at the hospital. i think its NUH... just hope that the operation will be successful... or... i also dun dare to think about the consequences... work for me at office is still the same... smt i dun even knoe wat i am doing... just try to do and try to waste time and More Time... My Liason Officer is coming down to visit me on THis Thursday. Actually need to do a presentation but i told him den he say its ok... heng sia... hopefully i can pass this hurdle... cos there are more out there for me.... there is also a final presentation in school... just pray for me if u all see my blogs... thanks for people who are there for me and standing or sitting around me... i knoe smt, when i need help not many can help me. But by answering that i am sorry that i cant help or trying to find who can help me is good enough... i am learning and listening to what others are saying and be more considerate... Thanks dear for letting me knoe who i am... i knoe i may not be a very good girlfriend... not gentle, not considerate, not understanding, not caring... but i am trying to be more of all these to let u treasure me more... keke... i know 1 thing after listening to wat my friend told us and wat happened to other people's relationship, i learnt abt many things... not to take other people for granted... if others that u for granted tell them 1 day u will regret... sometimes, be grateful that you can fnd someone will tell u truthfully about ur faults. take some time to understand how much courage they took to tell you wat u will get angry after hearing... Spare a thought for others... its hard but i am trying... jia you wo, xiao gong zhu... btw, for those who knew abt wat happen to my bf and me, dun worry. we are both fine... we tok things out and trying to make things clear and giving each other time to understand our stand and roles... keke... take care folks

????????????HuH??????????????

2005-12-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

Am I getting to sticky with him? I dun know perhaps ba… cause its like when I dun see or dun meet up with him, I felt like I m missing him… how people define missed or how people define love? A kind of weird feeling, wanting to protect and care about your the other half? Some things are unexplainable. Just like y 2 person with different living environment, different ways of living, different thoughts can be together… Trying their best to let each other stand their side and views, attitude can give people many kinds of reactions. Different people have different tolerance level. It does not mean that if your tolerance level is higher it is better. No, if you think that way then you are wrong. Or maybe it is a bad thing. If you tolerate the other person, and not letting the other person know that she/he is not doing or thinking the right thing, they will never know… Why people need to talk things out, is because of wanting the other person to understand him / her better. To cut down the misunderstanding of 2 person… For the past few days was quite confusing… maybe lots of things happened… I fell yesterday, and my mood just swung like a swing in the playground… down and nearly touches the ground… After Alex finishes him work, my mood was picking up. But after I received a call from my mum and granny say I said in the morning that I am going back for dinner but it was wrong. I told them in the morning that I am not going back for dinner… see they managed to switch facts… sad sia… but people will forget things that's what dear told me. I am trying to understand. Cause though I may not forget things that often but, when I grow old 1 day, I will sure meet up with this problem… 忍一时风平浪静, 退一步海阔天空

5 days of lonelyness...

2005-11-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

today is the 5th day of lonelyness... i thought i will be ending today. but... gg to see sea to calm my mood down... to my favourite hideout alone... my friends all busy... other very nosily de i nv ask,,, sea, at esplanade is a nice place to calm ur moods down... take care

@fter a Night Of Silence...

2005-11-30T14:07:00.000+08:00

yest was a night of silence....

He ask me whether wan meet today. Den I say up to u. he say he already ren me and dun wan to argue le...

Den now I still say this kind of things… I also nv mean anything. Den he say he is fed up…and say dat I am testing his Patience…

When I say meet him later to tok things out, he say he dun wan meet… and he say he dun knoe how to react when he sees me… and beg me to let him cool down… he say now he is the 1 who dun wan to tok things out…

Finez… if he dun wan tok things out den dun tok lar… da bu liao ar?

I Having Communicaton Problem??

2005-11-29T20:14:00.000+08:00

i... .... dun noe wat to say in the begining... HURT... Communication brreaks down... and mY heart also breaks... cant he say it in a more indirect manner?? Read This Sentence: "The problem lies with u dear... Try to put urself in others shoe..." i just dun understand,,, people say the way i tok to my parents is very rude. but i dun understand... in wat sense? they feeling smt wrong. but when i ask them, they say dun know... dun ever say my parents nv educate me... i hate it... i really hate it... and i will hate you tooo... dun ever say my parents dun educate me... PLEASE dun say dat.... i just dun feel like watching tv... sit on my bed, pack my table anf dun even feel like eating... and i will tell myself, if the way dat i put things infront of them is not the way they like. k, i change for them... and i swear from now on. u will see my keeping quiet... just tell me when i can tok and when i can joke or when i shld say wat. perhaps, i must learn from YOU! BYE!... gg MIA liao... dun bother to look for me... cos i just dun haf the courage to face any 1... keeping as quiet as i can, to please every one dat i am meeting. do wat i can to please them too... A person who nv thought much is thinking...

Missing or not??

2005-11-23T09:14:00.000+08:00

Missing/not missing,,, since the day dat we both started, we spent most of our time together. So if he haf something dat he need to attend, I cant just sit there in silence but to find my own entertainment to entertain myself. Or I will feel that my day will be very bored. He is starting his studies from today onwards. It will be taking up 3-4 months. I haf to plan my time for tues and fri. y?? cos he haf class on both of these days... hahaa.... missing him more and more... Nvm, I found myself new hobby. This few days, I will start my shopping. Time for some new clothings… gg queensway wif sis after dinner… and den if there is extra time, I will drop by art frenzy to look for some scrap things and start to do my LOs.. Jasmine and the rest wan see wat I haf scraped… but I this beginner, pls dun expect much from me… I will try my best. But sometimes, plain is nicer… Da jia "jia you" enjoy ur studies or it will be tough for u... i knoe u can do it de... xiao gong zhu shang...

AskIng OR DeManDing Too MuCh??

2005-11-20T15:15:00.000+08:00

am i asking or demading too much??

wat if i ask u some questions and u answer it on ur side...

if u are saving for some1, den wat u expect the other person to do??

spend or save??

sianz...

B1RtHdAy!

2005-11-18T05:20:00.000+08:00

jie jie brought me to a double o (pub) yest... 1st time... den went to the dance floor and dance... wat a memorable birthday this year... i also got my eyebrows trimmed. those kind using strings de... and also my hair cut... dear also went wif use the double o... he paid 25. he say very expensive... i think may b he is very tight in cash now le... oops..

***c0nFiRm@t10n...

2005-11-18T04:54:00.000+08:00

u R not lame... cos i am lamer u R not alone... cos got me here u R not stupid... cos i am more stupid u R not boring... cos i am more boring u R not useless... cos no 1 is useless dun look down on urself... every1 got a useful part of them. trust and believe in urself...

Th3 NIt3 B4..... BiRtHd@Y

2005-11-17T04:30:00.000+08:00

yest(15 Nov 2005) was the day before my birthday... i went to dear's house and did nth. he say he got nth to gif me... but ltr, when he saw me so sad, he ask me to find smt. and i got no idea wat to find... oooo.... so surprised, he bought me a bracelet... which haf flowers on it... addtionally, he added a boy onto it. dat made it looked very special and i love it alot... No lunch... not forgetting smt which is more impt and more special then the bracelet... though it may not cost alot, but it worth more den the bracelet... which is a birthday card... HE MADE THE CARD... HAND DRAWN... drawn and coloured... it may not worth a thing to others, but to me, it is very expensive. i cant get it any where else... he drawing was so beautiful and the colour matched perfectly... just like flowers growing in the garden... i actually dun understand y are there so many colours in the card, but after he explained to me. my heart just felt a sense of shiver... and my eyes just became watery... i was touched by him in the afternoon... after bathing, went for dinner... i also dun noe wat are we gg to haf for dinner. not even a single clue was given to me... or there are clues, but i dun treat them as, cos no matter how i guess, i will not be able to find out de... ( me so weak hor...) he kept quiet trying his best not to let me knoe a thing...took a bus from his house to tampines. at tampines, i thought we gg to Pariss Restaurant, but i was wrong, he suddenly turned to the train station... but we took a train to pasir ris, took a bus to pasir ris park, the whole journey, i still dun noe where are we heading to... (Felt Lost at that time) walk walk walk,,, still haven reach... reached le... at fisherman village... (*STUNNED*) took a seat... i asked him to order cos i... (*busy looking at the surrounding... see the sky, see the sea, see the people and the atmosphere*) am busy mah... like mountain tortoise like dat...

WOW!!!, crabs, eggs and pork ribs...(chinese meal)... seems expensive... went back and tell my sis the price she say its cheap leh... i dun noe,,, but i knoe i am very very very happy... i just cant express how happy i am... i cant describe wif words...

Dear, this is wat i wan tell u:

ya, i dun deny that u always make me angry. i also cant deny dat i am finding fault wif u at times. but please forgive me for ignoring and saying u this 2 weeks... i nv knoe that u are actually making magic for my birthday, i really appreciate it... and the sleepless nites that u haf... i nv imagine that u still haf time running ard to do things for me... Thanks... u r really lighting up my heart wif ur heart...

xiao gong zhu shang...

Take Care

FriD@y

2005-11-12T15:13:00.000+08:00

Friday morning, it was like i woke up 0715hrs. den went out of my house as usual slept for the whole bus journey, wat is 1 day some 1 were to accompany me to work... hahaaa... *starting to dream again*) who will huh?? siao liao me... nvm... called my bf house at 8.30 this morning, he nv pick up, call him for like dun noe how many times lor. den called his hp at 8.50. den he also nv pick up. dun noe wat happen to him sia... thought smt happened... den i called his house again...the longer i hear the ringing the more i felt smt missing... the next time i called his hp was at 9am.. he also nv pick up... he called back 3 minutes later... he shld knoe that i will call him. i spent 1/2 an hr worrying abt him... y didnt he call me back earlier on instead... normally, people will go out on friday rite? cos at last finish a week already... but this friday for me is like, i need to go home. accompany my home. dat means i cant go out... UNDERSTAND?? i dun noe since when i came like this... very small things i cant even tolerate. and i get angry very easily... now i haf to start learning how to tolerate. he tolerate me, dun mean that i can get from bad to worst. *learning how to tolerate. try not to gif his my attitudes... Ren Yi Shi Feng Ping Lang Jing...

W@rnING...

2005-11-10T06:45:00.000+08:00

W@RNING... my fren's supervisor come tell me... he say office phone is not meant for chit chatting... wat e hell... nvm... my dear dear sian sian today... erm... regarding wat he thought of i dun object. but i am quite happy cos its not a good place to work in and not a good boss that he haf... but i would suggest he will to get a job in hand 1st. then he quit his job. its safer this way...

S!@N...

2005-11-09T09:30:00.000+08:00

felt very sian sia... need to write c++ prog codes n i haf nv write them before. just felt like toking to dear but i cant. cos he is working and so am i. i felt so bored now. so wat if i tok to him, wat i wan say, i really dun noe.

feel like and haf to say is two diff thing. Perhaps must do like wat he say. that is dun tok on the phone too often. cos if dat happens, which means dat we haf lesser things to say at 1 time. cos we haf been sharing. i dun noe is it becos dat i am working, and my boredom seems to increase. as the things dat i need to do, no 1 seems to be free to help or cant help me.

i just dun understand, why i can help others but others just cant help me in wat i need. not they dun wan help, but they just cant help. is either nv learn before or nv hear before lor. sian diao right?? how? how? how?

i dun noe wat i am thinking abt sia. its like felt stress, felt tired, felt relunctant towards everything and every1. perhaps wat u see in me is not the real me ba...some1 who is stronger than me, some1 who observe me long enuf will knoe... who i am and wat i am really like...

if u wan knoe, i can tell u, i am some1 who will get hurt, get down, get anything u can think of very easily... i need more than want u will expect. i may look very strong, but i am very weak. care and concern, guess and understand is wat u need for the basic requirement to understand me. Hear it properly : is BASIC REQUIREMENT. if i haf trust, understand, and other forms of feeling and things that i can believe in u, u will slowly see me reviewing myself to u. i can be some 1 dat u can tok to. i will hear u out.

but if i haf problems, believe me and help me dig it out from me. perster me and i will tell u. and dats the only way dat u can knoe how i am really feeling.

i am really very tired these days...

L0NL3Y....

2005-11-09T06:30:00.000+08:00

wat dun noe wats wrong. i knoe he is working, but i just cant so thinking y is he so busy. y ppl must work. my ex emailed me the other day. and its not very nice not to return an email. so i replied. saying that [[[

o... thanks for ur concern. i think i am doing just fine. Taken good care by some one... ya, sure if i need help, i will tell u. hopefully, i still haf ur number. hahaa... and a person like u, how can i forget u rite? ]]]

he replied me a rather long msg.

[[[

haha..was tt meant to b a sarcastic comment?lolz..anyway dun realli want any hard feelings between us lar..n ya glad tt u found sumone beta..u deserve sumone beta den mi lar..though i haf changed so much for e beta..i tink i was juz not good enuff in e past haha..u should go ahead n seek for ur own happiness n find e goal of ur life..to realli luv a person is to let go if she can b happier if i let go haha..i have many atimes alot of things to say to u when we left tt time..but didnt realli got e chance though..in fact i wanted us to part happily n peacefully but dunnoe how it turn out tis way..mayb its my fault lar haha..

tis email is getting abit lengthy hor haha..oya b4 i got no chance to say..i will say afew things here lar..(get ready tissues?lolz).. ok serious lar..its from e bottom of my heart,i learnt alot from tis relationship..all e good things n all e bad things..it taught mi many things..lessons tt i can learn from..u taught mi alot too..many things i will nv exchange for anything in e world..u were a great fren,a great lover,a great helper,a great companion n many many things.got chance den tell u more..mayb can tell u face to face den see ur reactions haha..kidding lar haha.. tio scareded for awhile rite u lolz.. anyway ya mayb if u reply my msg can reply mi thru my hp ba..cos pretty bz these days..dun realli got e chance to go online haha..but u should b more bz den mi lar..take so long to reply my email haha..eh u say u forgot my number?(no heart one sia sum ppl haha) its 9------- ..(stil same lar..waiting for u to call ma hahaha..wait long long also dun haf rite haha..kidding lar keke)

u free can gimme a call talk crap lar haha(tis is not kidding lar haha) u read until here sure veri sian le rite..muz tahan awhile lar..den i end tis email liao.. cheers

]]]

just felt like writting this down...

vomit,,,

2005-11-03T09:03:00.000+08:00

felt like vommiting sia... a werid feeling... its a sudden thingy... dun noe y too... haiz... gg home soon le... and felt so cold for this whole today... sickening...

cant tell my parents cos, ltr i cant go bbq tmr night le... so keep quiet see tmr how. mayb will be ok by den ba...

IntEreStinG

2005-10-28T07:40:00.000+08:00

美丽的神话美丽..的..神话... 梦中人熟悉的脸孔.... 你是我守候的温柔.. 就算泪水淹没天地..... 我不会放手，每一刻孤独的承受..... 只因我曾许下承诺... 你我之间熟悉的感动爱就要苏醒... 万世沧桑...唯有爱是永远的神话... 潮起潮落...始终不悔真爱的相约... 几番苦痛的纠缠...多少黑夜挣扎... 紧握双手让我和你再也不离分... 枕上雪冰封的爱恋... 真心相拥才能融解... 风中...摇曳...炉上的火... 不灭亦不休...

think ! s!ck L3...

2005-10-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

i think i am sick le... today too me is beri cold. heng i rmb to bring my jacket to my company sia... or else i die le... yest just finish my presentation. overall, it was quite good. cos my supervisor was there to help me. my head hurts these days. i dun noe y too... it just hurts. headache ba... there are alot of reasons cosing it. like hp radiation, i keep on use my mp3 everyday, slp when my hair is wet, or there is a tumor in my head. who knoes wat is the reason. and now i am at work. just took a panadol, den was like so tired. so i took a nap. when i wake up, my head still hurts sia. felt like sleeping again. darling busy now. so cant tok to him on the phone. and my partner is absent today. he is on MC think he got flu and fever... wearing a jacket does not seems to make a difference. my hands are still like ice... or mayb i need a thicker jacket. but i dun haf le. unless, got surprise... but wun happen de lar.

Having a feeling that i am falling sick le... its just a matter of time..mayb i already haf fever le... i cant feel like either, think i not gg for lunch le... most prob sleeping in the office ba...

D1nn3r!!

2005-10-19T14:15:00.000+08:00

yest de dinner not nice de,,, but there is nth else to eat le. so bo bian... today morning wake up my eyes very pain sia. now got smt dat i need to draw up sia. which i dun noe whether i can a not lor. try lor. part of the preparation for the review on MONDAY...so bo bian also ... den i think i gg so catch a cold le... my nose haiz... and itsso cold though i wore my jacket... how?? gg lunch le, dun noe whether i can finish wat i am assigned to do not. but i am just an itern student. so just try ba. put in enuff effort can le... hahaa... looking forward to friday sia... cos since i start attachment, my days are everyday some how the same... after work go dinner den go hm le... but friday got bbq sia. den can meet up wif my frens and tok whole nite and gossip le... cos my poly frens all dun noe go where le... some not in singapore, some busy wif attachment lor... so i left my bf to peh me. he also got his things, i also cant keep on sticking wif him mah. i will gif him his whole time and space for his frens... me say until like i so da fang hor. but it also depends lar... cos i knoe he also very fan when working. so i will do my part and dun always fa pi qi on him. or later he get angry den no 1 peh wo le... sobz sobz... xiao gong zhu shang... only 2 mths and 9 days old.

SiAnz...

2005-10-12T14:39:00.000+08:00

i also dun noe wat i am feeling right now... Stress?? Worried?? Tired?? Sian?? Fan?? i really dun noe... having mixed feelings ba...wat am i thinking abt?? seriously, this attachment is kind of hard for me. cos i nv learnt this programming language b4 and i just cant figure things out. as those things(codes) that i need for my program is not found in the books, internet and everything. ya, i have some sample codes, but if for a person who nv see it b4 and nv study it b4. what u think? do u think she will knoe? if i ask u to do java programming using Visual Basic .Net, would u knoe? OF COS NOT!!! who will knoe leh? no matter how clever u r, u also wun knoe de. as for programming, its not as if u any how type, u can get wat u wan de. not like dreamweaver or adobe like dat. the more u type, the m0re errors there will be if u type any thing dat is not relevant. Even the most simple part of the program like declaring of some variables, u will also make mistakes... u say sian a not leh? ya i am sian abt this life le, but i am telling myself, i cant. cos i knoe i haf choosen this path. and i shld not regret it. As if i go back to sch, i will haf to face my frens mah. so i dun wan. i rather i take the tough path now and learn something now... this tells me smt, not everything will be the way dat u planned and expect. if this are the way u expect, no 1 will suffer, no hospitals, no poor ppl and many more. But i must also b happy... cos ppl hear my nagging here and there. thru phones, thru emails, thru blogs and many more ways. if they call me, and they are not lucky enuf, they will hear my grumble at them... hearing my thoughts and unhappiness abt all this. But i also seldom tell ppl, so this blog can b of good use... actually, today i do the programming until i feel like crying lor. cos i dun even knoe am i on the right track a not. i ask my supervisor some stuff, he ask me go figure out myself. and he even say he is not good at this and ask me go try and ask ard. How can they ask me do things that they dun even knoe how to do. I think attachment shld be like a coaching / training session, for students to learn from the supervisors but not the supervisors ask them to do things that they are not clear abt it themselves. FREE LABOUR?? wat to do?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? this a .... obstacle??? this a .... threat??? this a .... problem??? i do until i am sick and tired le... when i am asing ppl ,,, am i bothering them??? i knoe i shld take things easy. i am trying to. y must take things easy leh? cos i am an intern rite?? dude and ladies who are reading this... just do me a flavor, help me send a prayer to god. wat region u r in, wat religion u belong, just help me pray, wish dat i can survive and work til FEB and get a score that is good can le... And hope that my deearie can pass his advance theory... All The Best. May the good lord bless him and i will send my prayer for u to all the god that i knoe..

dun get stress up, just do ur best...

no matter wat is the result, there is 1 thing i can tell u. failure is not the end of life..

you haf passed, so the next thing u must do is save "s 11 " for ur practical...

jia you wo...

i knoe u will this tmr, but nvm. quietly i will still stay by ur side. watever the result is, i will still be here, listen to u and believing in watever u do... seeing is believing Xiao Gong Zhu Shang.

Pr3tty W0rri3d...

2005-10-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

i am abit worried for him. smt to do wif wat he told me this morning, dun noe whether is he ok a not...

A meeting that I am long waiting for

2005-10-08T05:36:00.000+08:00

A meeting that I am long waiting for… I knoe for some couples they also seldom meet. But the only force for me is to meet my dearest bf… I am now currently having my attachment in Infineon… It a big company that does a lot of things you cant finish toking about what they are doing or wat they did in 1 day. It definitely not possible… Days here are not easy. I need to write up c++ programming that I haf nv learn before. But I will always rmb wat every1 including him told me. I am just an intern student. I cant do everything… My dear he ar. So scared that I cant wake up so without fail, he will sure call me every morning though he need not wake up so early. He will just call me and make sure that I go to work on time. It sound like wat a husband does rite? So sweet of him. Sometimes, I when he called, I will TRY to go wash up straight away so that he can quickly go back to catch a short slp… Now that both of us are working, we can only meet on alternate days. Ppl may say its lot already. But we only meet up for dinner.. den me this Cinderella, got to return back to my palace before 10+… quite sad lar. But wat to do, I am a mum’s girl. Who ask me last time so naughty, so my mum paid extra attention on me lor… wahaha… nvm got more mu ai(Chinese: mother’s love)… Yeah and today’s Friday and dear got back his internet le. Cos he paid his billsss…. Hahaa… kinda of happy for him too… when I started to work, and when he haf no internet connection, I also seldom go online le. And another reason is that my friend is now all having attachment. And this company that I am in now does not have MSN. So cant chat lor… Abit happy for another things, these days, my pimple seems to get beta le. Cos I bought a very very very expensive pimple cream. Just a small small tube cost me 27 buck lor… sian diao hor… I think these days since I start working, I seems to spend not on eating but on buying things lor… a lot of things caught my eyes… Things that caught my eyes, but too expensive 1) the bottle candies (SP: 10.90) small small bottle onli lor… 2) earrings using swarovski (SP: 12.90 per pair) 3) Looking for a pair of heels 4) More to come…hahaa…

d@y just pa55ed...

2005-10-06T06:00:00.000+08:00

today is not really a good day for me... it started of wif a nice and heavy breakfast. i did not have enough slp yest also. so kinda oftired today when i woke up. and i heard that my supervisor is gg on leave on thurs and friday. the feeling was worst. i was told to write some codes that to him, it is simple. But not to me. i dun even knoe howam i suppose to get gg...

i managed to get some sample codes from my collegues. But the moment i sawthe codes, i went "WOW! wat's this? " today i lookeed through the codes,it just look so mo shen to me... haiz... so sleepy le. cos wat i see, i dun even understand a single thing... tmr how???

tata

Blur??

2005-09-30T13:10:00.000+08:00

huh???

1st Day @ work...

2005-09-26T15:06:00.000+08:00

wat a interesting day at work. today is the 1st day. i reached the company at ard 7.10. den i was given the address at 8 Kallang Sector. so i took a stroll there. when i was walking my way there, there were alot of ppl there. wait for shuttle service.

Since then Til N0w...

2005-09-24T13:56:00.000+08:00

though i haf not knoe my this group for a long time and we mayb not be very very close, we may not haf alot of pleasent moments. But we spent most of out time together. we come in a group of four. Janice is the closest to me... u can see dat we will always come to sch together , eat together, even go toilet also together de... hahaa... so funny rite? Both of us some times dun like each other de. but we got no choice. cos we need each other in other to survive in sch. cos no one can every b alone. i need her, and she need me. both of us knoe this dao li. but we nv say out. but we respect each other alot. she really help me alot i dun deny. but thinking back, smt i felt a bit guilty, cos i cant help her leh... Really wan to thank her. cos she really really is some one who will help me. i believe this sentence, "a friend in need is a friend in deed." We really haf times dat we haf "FIRE". is either she ren or i ren. but after a while den ok le.. very fast de... kinda of miss her... she haven go, i am like missing her le. cos if i haf problems, she will lend me her ears de lor. but if she go china den i tell who leh? how? another thingy is i saw smt yest. kinda of guilty leh... i saw dada typed smt to her ex but its like quite long ago le lar. But in the begining, i felt abit weird. of cos will de, if its ur bf den dun tell me u wun. but if u wun, i am really proud of u. actually its in the begining only. cos he say he will always rmb her mah. den i was like kinda of jealous lar. dun ask me y. ya i will let him go out wif her, but just dun ask me y... til the end of the mail, i suddenly felt a very assured feeling. i am also not too sure whether is it given by him or mayb i can say by wat he haf written in the end ba... seriously, i didnt dare to tell him dat i saw this. cos its kinda of private and confidental ba... but wat to do, i just said dat nite dat i will say cos i think i shld and just dun ask me y. hahaa... after saying, i felt a sense of relief. just hope he is not mad over this matter ba...

and smt more serious, dat is he fell today. i was like shocked lor. i was faxing smt, den suddenly, he fell behind me. i so scared sia. the moment, i heart pumped very very very very fast. fast til i can even feel my pulse when i am picking him up from the ground. if u all see hor, sure frighten de... cos me so scared... the cut was like quite long, but luckily, its not too deep. in actual fact, he said he wanted to stop the ladder from crashing onto me, so he held onto it, but he fell... so indirectly, if i was not ther today, he wun fall... take care dude.

a gal ended her msg wif blisters on her leg...

sending a prayer to goddness of mercy

see ya soon...

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